My inner journey consists of 40 journal entries written on a line-less notebook. With no restrictions or rules over the manner in which I express my thoughts into visible words, chains that once bound such conveyances are now loose and no longer an obstacle.
Upon the commencement of the journal, words did not flow easily and I found it hard to just keep on writing without stopping. " This isn't even natural," I endlessly and thought to myself. I eventually became tired of thinking and just wrote. There are countless of awkwardly composed sentences composing the first half of my journal, of which many of them were written when I was not able to obtain freedom myself. Perhaps as time progressed, and me with it, writing became easier and effortless as I found comfort in myself instead of criticism and self-judgement.
Although the vocabulary in my journal is not as colorful as other works I've written, the entires produced carry a different sort of value and meaning. By the month of March, I can see a change in how I proceed to follow each sentence. I am no longer searching for the right words to start my sentences. Instead, I notice, through the sloppiness of my penmanship, my efforts to try to contain the overflow of words trying to escape my mind and creep their way onto the paper.
Last week, there were various moments of complete self-liberation. I composed three 4-verse poems out of the emotions felt during those days. They may not be of high quality, but it is a step i most certainly wanted to take without having to push myself towards it.
In regards to my future goals, it would be desirable to continue to develop any writing abilities I may possess in my being. Writing is another love of mine. Why abandon it?
I totally agree with you that one of the harder parts of the journal is to keep your hand moving. I think that for me too keep on writing without stopping is very difficult, but with the journal I use to it. I also love write like you because when I write I feel free to express myself. I love the way you have reflected about the journal and your inner journey.
ReplyDeleteGreat reflection Claudia. I loved the part when you say that you fell free writing, and I totally agree with you. Writing in the journals almost every day is an activity that makes you fell liberated.
ReplyDeleteClaudia never stop of writing, if you like to do that. Find your passion and if you feel free with a pen pursues your freedom.
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ReplyDeleteI agree with you that at the beginning was not easy at all to keep on writing without stopping. However, it is good to know that this type of writing exercise has helped you to know yourself better. Good reflection!
ReplyDeleteExcellent way to describe your experience. I as well feel like there is an overflow of words when I wrote in the journal! I'm glad that writing is one of your hobbies! Great job Claudia!
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